Choices Made at Twilight

So crawl on my belly ’til the sun goes down
I’ll never wear your broken crown
I took the road and I fucked it all away
Now in this twilight, how dare you speak of grace

As I mentioned in my first post, I have a special affinity for Mumford & Sons. Now, while “Babel” is one of my favorite songs of theirs, “Broken Crown” is certainly in my top five. These lines, show above, are the main reason. I could write an essay on the religious symbolism in this song, but for me it’s more personal.

I think most people have been involved in a relationship that ended on a sour note. Whether that was because of dwindling passion or a painful betrayal, the hurt is real and scarring. It can make it almost impossible to open up to another person later in life. Why invest time and care in a loving relationship when there’s always the chance of feeling that pain again?

I think the line here that really hits home for me is the second one. How many people do you know who tried to make you into something they wanted, who tried to dress you in what they liked, or tried to change you while disguising it as an honor? Sometimes these people really do have your best interest at heart, but if they aren’t listening to you or what you want then they’re hurting more than helping. The crown they try to put on you to make you look better is actually broken, and this risk of cutting yourself on it is real and dangerous.

That’s why it’s sometimes more important to “take the road and [fuck] it all away.” Making mistakes is uncomfortable, but it is important to growth and maturation. Making your own choices and standing by those choices is imperative to becoming a strong, confident person. Then we can be happy knowing that we did what we thought was right instead of letting someone else live and act for us.

For that last line I highly suggest that you sing it in a snarling, angry voice, because it brings to mind all of those hypocritical people who showed you no mercy when you messed up but insisted you give them grace for their mistakes, especially the mistakes that marked you indelibly. Forgiveness, mercy, and grace are all important and necessary traits, but standing your ground when someone would rather you lie down and take their abuse is also important.

On a final note, the song also contains a verse that speaks to the entirety of this post. “Now in this twilight our choices seal our fates.” The choice to submit, to defy, to love, to leave, and to live on our own terms decide the directions of our days. The choices are often easy. It’s standing by them that’s difficult.